Victoria's blog!

I'm really not in the mood for another hyped-up blogging session.

I'm feeling rather awful now.
Thinking about what my future holds, i feel like crying.

I'm feeling so weak now.
Many tell me now to worry, not to afraid.
Because I'll definitely find my own path.

But...
How can i not to worry when i know nothing about myself.
I don't even have the basic trust in myself.
How can i possible continue?

Sometimes, i wish someone could stand by me listening to me crying and knew how I felt.
It feels horrible for not having close available now.


Worst still ...
When I looked at my prelim result, I felt like stabbing myself.
How can i possible done so badly?
It's terrible.. terribly done.
Far from my expectations ... far far away.

There are so much to be vented out but I can only swallow all back into my gut.
Cannot sleep.
And I even felt powerless to bring out my books to study.
It’s just ... bad

Take my tears. I want to lose them.

I wish i could climb over the rock and go for the next mountain.

Wait and see! I'll prove myself!